I've been sick for over two weeks. This upper respiratory bug has kicked my bottom. Movement triggers coughing, wretching. My energy is zapped. I know two other moms who've had the same thing, one worse than I, one about the same as I, and we all feel completely wiped out, and cough when we move or try to talk.
I haven't put gas in the car in two weeks. That's how little I've been out. I dragged myself to the girls' once-a-week skating classes, keeping a cough drop or hard candy in my mouth to calm the coughing trigger. An hour there wore me out. I managed to get to the grocery store for basics. Little else.
I fell off my homeschooling lesson plan. When a mom coughs when she tries to talk, she can't read to or with her child, demonstrate and interact with the child and the abacus, work on new vocab, etc.
I was a day late on one review and am a week and a day late on a Timberdoodle review, my first review for them. I doubt they'll offer me another review item. But playing their really cool game that has incredible therapeutic possibilities, too, has not been an option for this mom who has been doing the bare minimum. My kids have played it - and I failed to capture the photos I need for the blog post.
I still do not feel 100%. My girl doesn't either. She's had a touch of something viral (runny nose, puffy eyes are signs of that) that has sent her perseverating and stimming, has caused her "autism" to rise and be more present. She's missed quite a few therapies in the past couple of weeks.
I do feel stronger than I did even over the weekend, and am mentally reorganizing. I have to make myself follow through with action. Laundry, dishes, grocery shopping, decluttering, cleaning - everything beckons, because I have fallen so behind on everything. And I have six or seven independent review items to tell you about in addition to two TOS reviews coming in a few weeks. I need to make myself a to-do list to help me prioritize.
I do not intend for my blog to be a review-only blog, although there are periods of time where that happens. I apologize for that. I enjoy connecting people, families, teachers, professionals with resources, and I am privileged to receive a lot of resources to tell you about, hopefully, connecting some of you with a resource here and there that is helpful on your journey.
I feel guilty, as if I've been ignoring my blog on purpose, when, in fact, I simply have not had the energy to write.
I hope to be back up and blogging regularly in a few days. I have some observations about skating and my NT daughter to tell you about, and I'm pondering the effect of real-life UNproductive UNcertainty on me, trying to write in my mind something that will come out of my fingers for the blog in a few weeks. I'm getting an education in a lot of areas in this time of illness and reorganization.